There is alot of uncertantiy and restlessness happening at the same time. I want to fix everything , like literalllllllllllly fix everything mentally , emotionally ...physically . I think you guys think I am nuts but don't you ever feel like there is no break . ever ? When the hell is school going to end ? Why do I have to spend the majority of my life in school ? When I was 16 , I used to watch like adults go to work and I 'd pity them because you know they arent in highschool where everything is fun and allows room for mistake. I Have never despised school in my life , I have been absent only once in my 11 years of stay in America. I appreciated the art of learning not just from books but from conversations with friends , family and strangers. In my life reading has had a big impact-- I am a mosaic of "most" of my favorite characters. Reading was my stress reliever, you know, that friend that turns that frown upside down. But it is like "Time is making a fool of us" (Dumbledore said this ) and I cannot allocate a time or a place where I can just go to that happy place where i can just lose all my problems and instead face someone else's--with the understanding that there is an happy ending.
I agree with this so much, I think that entering senior year we have no room for mistakes and are forced to be happy to the idea of learning in a way that doesn't fit everyones way of learning. But I guess we just have to accept its something that this society forces us to do. And i can also relate to the fact that it seems like i don't have space for my own personal happiness, but have to prioritize everyone else based on their expectations of me.
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