I hate work. I hate rushing. I hate hopelessness. and I hate auto correct. and I hate ignorance. and I hate competition. and I hate the people I surround myself with. how should I handle these issues ? how can the burden be lifted ? what do I do ? seriously, every time I think about what the problem is I just know what it is. how do I escape. how do I handle it without hurting anyone . how can I just drop everyone without any explanation ? I seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously sometimes hate them. why do I always find fault in others but not me ? I'd fail a class and blame the teacher's lack of flexibility and austere attitude. instead why did I wait so long. and where the hell are my priorities ? why do I care about fucking others I'm not even together, why do people's opinions matter ? I hate admitting that some people opinions matt-- oh then again it doesnt. it feel so good to do what i want. it feels so good. should i just do that ? I'm really taking advantage of this free write... like a virtual diary... hmm.
Umu I don't know what makes you hate the people you surround yourself with, but I don't think the solution is to just drop them. There is a reason that these people became your friends, so you shouldn't give up on them so easily. As for blaming teachers when you fail their class, I completely agree because I also blame them.
ReplyDeleteI understand everything your saying and can relate because sometimes everything is extremely overwhelming.
ReplyDeleteUmu, just step back for a moment and catch a breather. I agree with you about how do u step away from things, and let people go but at the same time when you seperate urself from the distraction you spend more time on yourself and doing things that needs to be done and are actually important. Always accept your mistakes amd move on. Focus on just doing you and what makes Umu happy.
ReplyDeleteI like your honesty, ot takes a brave person to admit to their own faults and wants. But I dont think that you should bash yourself of try to find a definitive reason as to why you feel the way you do for some of your questions. I'd like to see a follow up to this post..maybe telling us what next steps have you taken to maybe not make up so many excuses w/teachers, etc..
ReplyDeleteI think being that you hate so many things, maybe you should separate yourself. Sometimes isolation is a good thing depending on the time and your mood because you don't want to be around anyone.
ReplyDeleteWell, the good news is that you and the people around you are all just trying your best. A shift in your perspective would probably help you. I would suggest you consider this website: http://www.marcandangel.com/
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